Happy Thanksgiving

Filed under: Kristin Nicole's Thoughts — Wrote by Kristin on Saturday, November 29th, 2008 @ 10:50 pm

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving.

We started off at my house, I was there by 11 am helping my mom clean and cook. We had a great time, lots of food, talking and deserts! :)

Every Thanksgiving we have a tradition that we celebrate my Brother and my Aunts birthdays. There birthdays are in November so we have done this for many years, as far back as I can remember. So after the cake and eating desert real quick, we got ready to go to my Boyfriends Cousins house. It was probably about 9, we left a little later than usual but got to his cousins house around 9:30. We got there a little later than I would have liked, but honestly I hadn’t noticed the time. But at least we got there with time to hang out with his cousins. We probably left his cousins close to midnight and headed home for the night.

Friday night we had a Friends Thanksgiving, a tradition my brother and all his friends started about 4 years ago. We had a really good time, more food, more deserts and we drank and danced all night long. We had a really good time. Today is already Saturday and today we have just lounged in all day watching movies. I sit here writing wishing that tomorrow wasn’t already Sunday because that means Monday is around the corner and I have to go to work again. SUCKS! But it’s part of life, another day another dollar right?!? So far its been another blessing to have such a wonderful Thanksgiving with my family (boyfriend), and friends.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL!

Don’t dwell on all the things you don’t have and be grateful for all the things you do have.

XO,
Kristin Nicole

Happy Anniversary

Filed under: Kristin Nicole's Thoughts — Wrote by Kristin on Wednesday, November 26th, 2008 @ 9:41 am

Yesterday was my two year anniversary with my boyfriend. I couldn’t ask for a better night. He gave me a beautiful necklace that matched the ring he got me last year. I got him Fifa 09 for the PS3 (It’s one of his favorite games) and I got him Jason Mraz tickets for December 5th

After opening our gifts we went to Texas de Brazil. The food was delicious. We ate so much that I couldn’t even walk around afterwards. We tried though, we went to Borders but I just had to sit down before I exploded. LOL. We went home and well ….I don’t kiss and tell ;)

So back to Jason Mraz, I’m actually listening to his songs right now, I can’t wait to go see him. I plan on getting off work a bit early that day to go home and get ready because it’s at the beach and the parking becomes a mission. This way we can get there with plenty of time, and then go out to eat afterwards. =)

Well today is a slow day at work and I finished pretty much all my work, I have a few things to do which shouldn’t take me more than hour, if even that. Hopefully the day will go quickly to start our 4 day weekend!!

XO,
Kristin Nicole

Powerful Mind - Update

Filed under: Kristin Nicole's Thoughts — Wrote by Kristin on Monday, November 24th, 2008 @ 10:52 am

So my mind wasn’t that powerful this weekend. I was out sick on Friday and the cold just got worse. Today I feel much better, with lots of help from Zicam & Sudafed. I’m still a little stuffy but thankfully I feel much better.

I still do believe that the mind is very powerful, I also know I couldn’t help but feel bad and think it. Your thoughts are powerful and sometimes we can’t help but think negative. I try to stop that, I tried to tell myself I was feeling better. Luckily the cold didn’t get too bad and I was able to go to my nephews birthday party. :)

Well another day another dollar……back to work I go.

XO,
Kristin Nicole

Over powering your thoughs

Filed under: Kristin Nicole's Thoughts — Wrote by Kristin on Thursday, November 20th, 2008 @ 9:39 am

For a few weeks now I feel like my body wants to come down with a cold. Thoughts pop into my head, “Oh no I think I’m going to get sick”, “I feel like I’m getting sick”. I have to overpower my own thoughts and think positive. Right before my mom’s and brother’s party I felt the same way, I had to stop and tell myself I wasn’t going to get sick for the party, I couldn’t get sick. I started feeling better.

Today I wake up and my throat hurts a bit and my noise is a little stuffy. So all these negative thoughts start coming into my head again and I have my nephews birthday party this weekend, so I can’t possibly get sick! I took an Airborne, and every time I hear those negative thoughts in my mind, I stop myself, and I remind myself how grateful I am to be so healthy. I will not be sick and I will continue on this healthy street of happiness.

Do you believe that our mind is so powerful we can convince our bodies not to get sick? I can’t say I’m 100% sure this is true, or that this can truly happen. I do however believe it to a certain extent. I remember one time when I was living in California I felt a cold coming on, and I had a Christmas party to go to that week, I didn’t want to miss it. I kept telling myself I wasn’t going to get sick I was going to feel better. Sure enough I was great, the party was great and all was great. A week later that cold caught up to me. Was it a mere coincidence or was I overpowering my thoughts into believing I wasn’t going to get sick for that party?

I continue to think positive and take a few vitamins just in case. I hope for my sake for this weekend I can’t afford to get sick, as a matter of fact, I can’t afford it at least until the new year. So many things to do……:)

Another day here in the office, I will talk to you later.

XO,
Kristin Nicole

Cirque du soleil - Cortez

Filed under: Kristin Nicole's Thoughts — Wrote by Kristin on Wednesday, November 19th, 2008 @ 10:07 am

Last night I went to go see the Cirque du soleil - Cortez with my boyfriend and his mom. It was awesome! It is a must see show. It’s entertainment, comedy, musical theater, all in one. I would see it again if I could. I had previously in August for my boyfriends birthday went to Orlando and saw La Nouba, this also was a spectacular show. They have similar acts but yet different in their own ways. And the story lines are completely different.

The show was 2 1/2 hours, with a 30 minute intermission. It is worth every penny! Lucky for us also the weather was awesome outside, afterward we went to eat, I didn’t really want to go because I was so tired and I had to wake up this morning at 6:15am but we went ate and it was delicious! LOL. I passed out when we got home, it was probably a little passed midnight.

For anyone who wants to see this show I recommend it 100%. These people are very talented and bring lots of joy to everyone in the audience.

XO,
Kristin Nicole

Feeling Angry

Filed under: Kristin Nicole's Thoughts — Wrote by Kristin on Tuesday, November 18th, 2008 @ 11:02 am

Today is another day…..I don’t know if it’s the new Birth Control Pills I’m taking or the fact that I went to bed upset at my boyfriend last night, but I woke up with this Anger inside of me. Anger that I can’t control or get rid of no matter what I try. I have buried my head in work today, which if you know me is odd, I usually take it easy. I’ve been working since 7am and I am almost done with all the work I had, except for a few stuff I need to file. Okay; scratch that, my boss just came in and gave me a whole bunch of checks to mail out. :/

That should teach me to not complain about finishing my work!

Anywho back to what I was saying…..So I just feel angry I also feel like this thing between my boyfriend and I are unresolved. I feel sometimes I try to open up and say what I feel and I barely get a response. Is that all guys? Do they just not care or is it the incapability they carry inside of them to react to these feelings? Maybe it’s me, maybe I oversee everything and think about it too much.

Sometimes I wish I can understand a Man’s mind, or perhaps have them understand us. Something that over the decades as proven will never happen. Yet something we all think about once in a while.

Feeling today: Angry, upset, sad……

Will these feeling change? I’m sure they will, with in time….Hopefully the day will go much faster now with the work I just received.

XO,
Kristin Nicole

Update @ 10:40am:

Okay just when you think you can’t get any more pissed off, it just so happens that I work with this big asshole here in the office, I can go on with many more insulting names but for some reason I try to control myself as to falling as low to the ground as he is!

This is the story:

My office roommate told me that DN “The guy we all dislike” told her that where we used to eat lunch is going to become this lady from a sister companies office. Now it all started when they Let go my “person” we’ll call her “SLOW POKE” (Inside joke, I’ll tell you about later) so she is pregnant and we didn’t get a bunch of jobs we thought we were going to get and so they let her go. Yes a pregnant women, they gave her a pay and insurance until the baby is born but you wounder why they did it, why they let her go instead of DN. Mind you they kept DN who doesn’t know how to do shit and he gets paid a hell of a lot more for doing a job he doesn’t know how to do and the fact that we don’t need a full time IT Guy. So they moved my other friend who was next door to me “Too Nice” INTO “SLOW POKE’S” Old office the next day. She didn’t want to move but they didn’t even ask her and she had no choice. I think they moved her purposely cus DN likes to talk a lot of shit and they probably don’t want us all together since we do chit chat occasionally, but if you know Too Nice, you know that she buries herself into her work all the time, so it’s not something that is constant. Well we find out that this sister company lady is going to move into Too Nice’s old office, which is also our lunch room because Too Nice only works part time and when she leaves we eat lunch there on the round table. Why couldn’t they move the sister company to Slow Poke’s old office….Strange I DON’T THINK SO! DN NEVER AND WHEN I SAY NEVER I MEAN NEVER, Gets his lazy ass up to do something that is asked of him the same day. As soon as I told my boss that we needed a table in our office she said she would put one of those that connects to the wall and you can fold, I then see him going to Too Nice’s old office and folding up the round table. This didn’t need to be done today, he did it out of spite. And I can’t stand him at this point, he pissed me off so much! I have to hold my self from saying something to him because it isn’t professional but I want to tell him what an idiot he really is! That’s fine…breath!……because KARMA IS A BITCH, And I know one day he will get what is coming to him for all the shit he talks. I also know that we’ll get our table in our office and it will be better than ever, so we can close the door and enjoy our lunch hour!

As for today, me and Crazy girl “my office roommate” we are going to eat at our desk today and then clock out and walk around Sunset Place and enjoy the wonderful weather!!!

XO,
Kristin Nicole

30-50 CELEBRATION

Filed under: Kristin Nicole's Thoughts — Wrote by Kristin on Monday, November 17th, 2008 @ 9:45 am

So this Saturday we celebrated my Mom’s 50th and my Brothers 30th birthday party together. It was definitely a celebration to remember. Everything was great from the ball room we had to the caterer. The sushi was great and I heard the pasta, little burgers and much more were just as good. I didn’t get to eat that much, I got full on sushi and drinks lol.

The DJ didn’t have 3 songs we requested, which I was upset about, but the transitions from song to song was great and we had a great time dancing our butts off. My feet were hurting so much by the end of the night that I couldn’t walk. BEAUTY IS PAIN LADIES! I woke up in the morning with two small blisters under my pinkie toes :(
But it was all worth it!!!

My nephews looked adorable in their little suites, they were the only children there of course since all the babysitters were there at the party! LOL. My poor sister in law couldn’t dance that much since my oldest nephew who’s 4 years old didn’t want to leave her side. But overall she had a great time. Oh did I mention the cake was delicious! From PUBLIX, AND IT WAS GREAT!!! YUM YUM!!!

Another year passes us by and as we get older we come to appreciate and acknowledge all the things we are grateful for in this life time. My family, boyfriend, and friends who all joined us on a spectacular celebration!

Happy birthday Mom & David, hope you had a great one and many more to come!

XO,
Kristin Nicole

Brooke Smith (Dr Hahn) Fired from Grey’s Anatomy

Filed under: Grey's Anatomy, Random Thoughts, Kristin Nicole's Thoughts — Wrote by Kristin on Friday, November 14th, 2008 @ 11:51 am

I have been reading everywhere that Dr Hahn BROOK SMITH’s character has been let go from Grey’s Anatomy and it’s not because her character is Gay it’s because there is no Chemistry with Callie.

I have to agree, I have never really liked the character of Dr Hahn and always felt it wasn’t a good fit on the show, but I continued watching hoping things would change because I love the show so much.

I am honestly very happy she is leaving and I’m looking forward to who will be Callie’s next interest!

XO,
Kristin

ANXIETY

Filed under: Grey's Anatomy — Wrote by Kristin on Wednesday, November 12th, 2008 @ 11:38 am

it coming from the past, things that just set me off? But why, wouldn’t I know why this happens?

I found this website Helpguide.org it talks about the different symptoms of Anxiety. That’s what I get but I can’t seem to get rid of it. I read the following:

Anxiety
A sophisticated combination of negative, anxious emotions, which includes fear, worrying and fear of consequences. Anxiety is often accompanied by physical symptoms or sensations like a racing heart, breathlessness, nausea, chest pains and sweating for example.

Anxiety is the name given to a perfectly natural response to a perceived threat. Depending on the nature of the threat, anxiety can range from mild concern to extreme ‘fight or flight’ responses, wherein the body prepares itself for extreme physical exertion as part of its in-built ’self-preservation’ mechanisms.

Anxiety Disorder:
anxiety and anxiety disorders are conditions which make us react inappropriately to normal, fear-inducing thoughts and events. Inappropriate anxious reactions can take the form of heightened physical or mental experiences such as anxiety attacks, strange bodily sensations, strange thoughts and behavior we wouldn’t normally partake in such as aggression, obsessions or sadness for example.
‘Disorder’ is actually the wrong name for an anxiety condition because it suggests that there is something medically wrong with us… there isn’t. (I will continue to refer to anxiety conditions as ‘anxiety disorder’ for simplicity as it is how most people refer to this type of condition.)

In anxiety conditions, the sensations, thoughts, behaviors and symptoms we experience are not dangerous or the sign of any sort of illness, they are ‘normal’ reactions to anxiety. In anxiety conditions however, the constant or repeated presence of these symptoms, thoughts and sensations is inappropriate.
Anxiety experienced when there is no threat or danger present is called inappropriate anxiety. Experiencing constant, inappropriate anxiety means that the brain has become ‘re-set’ at a higher ‘resting’ anxiety level. Your brain and body think that this new level of anxiety is ‘normal’ and adopts the anxious behavior which then becomes instinctual, rather like digestion, circulation or breathing; these normal bodily functions are subconscious, automatic and require no ‘conscious’ action by you.

The resultant anxiety disorder can cause many symptoms, thoughts and sensations of anxiety… inappropriate anxiety symptoms can ‘feel’ very real, even though they are not caused by ‘real’ danger. You see, although you may feel anxious or scared, these are the sensations of fear and NOT real fear… you can only experience TRUE fear when there is something present which is potentially harmful to you. Doesn’t that make sense?

Your anxiety condition is caused mostly by repeated over-stimulation of the system in our body which helps us to react when we are exposed to a threat. This repeated stimulation resets our ‘normal’ anxiety levels in a small organ in the brain called the Amygdala. This process is called ‘conditioned learning’ or Operant Conditioning. It’s the process we all follow to learn anything new. It’s the process we all follow to learn anything new through repetition such as riding a bicycle or reading… by reinforcing that behavior we perfect it, which is exactly what has happened to cause your anxiety to become an anxiety disorder!

The scientist most known for his research into Operant Conditioning is Burrhus Skinner. His research findings are the key to recovery from an anxiety condition.
The Amygdala can be likened to a light switch. It is either anxiety ON or anxiety OFF. When it is anxiety OFF, it can only be activated by anxiety-provoking stimuli, such as stress, danger or extreme sadness, for example. But, it can get stuck in the anxiety ON position… this is when anxiety disorders are formed.

By over-stimulation of this system due to stress or bereavement etc., the physical and mental self can create anxious habits which then escalate into anxiety disorder and panic disorder symptoms like:

Social Anxiety / Agoraphobia
Situational Anxiety
Phobias
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
Panic Attacks

Yes, I said symptoms! These conditions are not separate anxiety conditions; they are symptoms of anxiety disorder.

Why? Because each one relies 100% on your underlying anxiety disorder for their very existence. Take away the anxiety disorder and OCD, Social Anxiety, Phobias and all the associated sensations fade away! FACT!

In the US, approximately 1 in 4 people will suffer from anxiety disorder at some point. That’s currently, at least 21 million sufferers!
Anxiety disorders are debilitating and sometimes frightening conditions which cause sufferers to physically and emotionally withdraw for self preservation.
Unless you have sufferer personally, it is impossible to understand how frightened and lonely sufferers can feel.

The vicious circle of anxiety symptoms and thoughts escalates and the sufferer may start implementing avoidance techniques in order to stay in a place of safety. Phobias such as agoraphobia and social phobia may develop and the anxiety escalates as the sufferer starts to restrict their daily routines and even allow their symptoms to dictate to them when, if or whether they can work or take part in normal activities.

Sufferers can become obsessive; this may develop into an obsessive-compulsive condition that causes the sufferer to carry out certain rituals. The anxiety sufferers may experience as a result of NOT carrying out such rituals fuels the need to do them. Some anxiety rituals include organizing or ordering, cleanliness or obsessions about health for example. Although many believe that these obsessions are part of a separate condition called OCD, if you eliminate the anxiety which drives them, they fade away.

Sound familiar?

A successful anxiety treatment should address this imbalance in the Amygdala directly in order to eliminate the ‘inappropriate anxiety’ at its source. The correct treatment should not dwell on apportioning blame to life circumstances or events - it should simply give you the solution you need to defeat your anxiety right now and return quickly and permanently to total wellness, anxiety-free and free of the symptoms, sensations, thoughts and obsessions which dominate your life completely.

Past Lives

Filed under: Kristin Nicole's Thoughts — Wrote by Kristin on Tuesday, November 11th, 2008 @ 4:22 pm

Do you believe in past lives? I read a book about past lives, how they find each other in the lives they are living now. I don’t know if this is really real, or things made up. But I do want to believe it, and I do think that it is possible.

I wonder sometimes what I might have been in a past life, what is my purpose in this life, the reasons I came back?! Is it possible?