SoapNights / Kristin Nicole

My mind struggles to think
I can feel every aspect in my mind trying to focus
but every time I close my eyes and try to think of nothing
I can’t!
It’s in constant motion,
constant thinking
negative thoughts, positive thoughts
but mostly just thoughts.

How can you get your mind to relax, to just not think of anything at all. Fully focus on nothing and let your body just relax.

Some say sleep is a form of relaxation.
Many people don’t remember their dreams, but I dream almost every night.
Mostly nonsense stuff that doesn’t even make sense.
When I wake up I feel exhausted sometimes, feeling like that dream had me running for miles.

My mind has control of me, my thoughts, my dreams my desires. How do you make it stop just for one second?
Just stop for one second so that I can breath with out feeling the pressure in my head.
Stop for one second so I can think straight.
When I read, I’m thinking
When I lie there, I’m thinking
When I dream, I’m thinking
It never just stops, it never just lets me relax, it never just lets me BE ME!

It’s like a fish in a bowl, swimming in circles for hours, for days until he takes his last breath. I sometimes feel like that, a routine, work, school, play, work, school, play. It never just stops, I never stop.

xo,
kristin nicole

–written by: kristin nicole — January 22, 2010 @ 10:15 am– Inspired by a dream, stuck in a dream–

Update:

I have recently purchased a home with my boyfriend so I can now cross out a few things on my list before 30. The ones in bold were ones I had already done when I made the list and the ones with the line through them are the current goals I’ve achieved. What are your goals?

xo,
kristin nicole

30 Goals Before 30

30 Goals Before 30… Let’s just say I don’t have that much time, yet I’m willing to try and get 30 Goals done before I’m 30! I got the idea of writing out my 30 goals before 30 from a good friend of mine. As I was reading her blog on Clothes, I discovered another post she wrote about called “30 Goals Before 30″. I thought to myself… WOW What a great idea. So of course I asked Vanessa if I can borrow her idea and make my own 30 Goals Before 30 and she was more than thrilled to see what my goals are. If you want to check out Vanessa’s Goals you can visit her website Vanessa-Michelle.com.

So where do I begin…The goals highlighted in Bold are the Goals I’ve already reached and all the rest are goals I hope to achieve before I’m 30.

Goals

1. Go sky diving
2. Travel to one new State each year (So far so good)
3. Kayaking
4. Go to the Regatta
5. Live in Downtown Miami
6. Buy a House with my Boyfriend
7. Get my AA
8. Picture Blog (365 Picture Project) – I better get started
9. Sign up for a Professional Cooking Class
10. See a Vineyard (Napa Valley)
11. See SNOW
12. Learn to play the guitar
13. Learn to play the keyboard
14. Go on a Cruise
15. Graduate with my Bachelors Degree
16. Make a dessert from scratch
17. Make my own recipe meal
18. Help give good advice to someone who needs it.
19. Go to Disney World (I’ve been to Islands of Adventure with my boyfriend but not Disney World).
20. Go to New York and finish seeing all the things I missed the first trip.
21. Visit Seattle
22. Visit my friend in Louisiana
23. Go in a Limo
24. Be a Maid of Honor
25. Have a mango tree in my backyard
26. Grow my own vegetable garden
27. Design my own house
28. Finish the transition from Soapnights to KristinNicole.com
29. Write a Book (in the works)
30. Someone to discover me and have my own column so that I can work from home and travel.

These are my 30 Goals Before 30 – Some of them I have already achieved and some I am currently working on. You never know where life will take you but you can make choices in life that can lead you to where you want to be. Be positive and good things will always come your way.

xo,
kristin nicole

The amazing story of a 94 year old women, finally getting her college diploma:

Wow I found this article on Yahoo.com, if this does not inspire a student to keep going for their dreams I do not know what will.

Read on….

It’s never too late to go back to college and get your college degree. I know you hear that a lot sometimes, but when you hear this story, you might just think I am right.

The story:

Hazel Soares is 94 years old and she was able to achieve what most of us do not or feel like we can not accomplish at our age.

Hazel Soares was one of 500 students to get their dipoma Saturday at Mills College.

“It’s taken me quite a long time because I’ve had a busy life,” said Soares. “I’m finally achieving it, and it makes me feel really good.” (yahoo.com)

Hazel Soares has six children and 40 grandchildren and great grandchildren. WOW I know, that is a lot of family, and with that she is the second oldest person in the world to graduate from college. Nola Ochs of Kansas was the oldest to graduate three years ago at the age of 95 and now topped that with a master’s degree in liberal studies from Fort Hays.

Hazel Soares said she always wanted to go to college but when she was younger the Great Depression was happening and only people who can afford college went. She never gave up on her dream though, and with all in all has managed to do just that. Dream and make it come true. Hazel Soares plans on working for the San Francisco museum after this. I say good for you Soares, GO FOR IT!

My thoughts:

This women amazes me in every sense of the word. Sometimes I sit and I complain that College is not for me, how hard it is, and how much sacrifice I have to make to continue working on my education. Why didn’t I finish when I was younger etc etc. You can not change time and you can not change the life you are in. If you want something go for it! Nothing in this world can stop you, if you do not let it. Hazel Soares is an inspiration to many, and I think she will continue to be an inspiration to the students that graduated with her. This just proves to so many of us that when you really put your mind to something, when you really dream about something you want, ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!

Whenever you feel like you can not do something, whenever you feel helpless or too old, think about this story and ask yourself, Is it really impossible? I think NOT!

xo,
kristin nicole

You can find the full story about Hazel Soares on News.Yahoo.com

Dreams

I had a dream last night that I had to have surgery, it was so weird though. In my mind they had to take a tooth out, which I have always feared and had dreams about, teeth falling out etc. Last night however it was different…

My dream

Last nights dream I was in some type of hospital and this doctor kept prepping me for surgery. She said she had to take my bone marrow out. I didn’t want to have surgery so I kept trying to get away, she said I couldn’t get down from the table, if I touched the floor with my bare feet I would have to get prepped for surgery all over again. After trying to get away for a while, she finally got me on the table and I started falling asleep, when I woke up I felt fine, and the next thing I know I’m heading to this restaurant in New York that I went to with my boyfriend and a few friends, except it was on a beach. My boyfriend was in a wheel chair and I was walking as if nothing happened, I kept thinking to myself and wondering why he was in a wheel chair and I felt just fine. He asked if we can sit outside because inside was too loud, we headed outside and the restaurant was right by the beach, I looked up and the clouds were dark gray, and then I woke up.

Dream Dictionary:

Surgery
To dream that you or someone else is undergoing surgery, signifies the opening of the Self and/or the need for emotional healing. You need to “cut out” or eliminate something from your life. Alternatively, you are feeling the influence of some authority figure. A more literal interpretation of this dream may reflect your concerns about upcoming surgery or about your health.

I’m not sure if this is accurate, I personally don’t feel like I need to “cut out” or eliminate something from my life. But I’m not sure exactly what to think of this dream. All I know is that it was so clear to me this morning, and it stuck in my head which was awkward…

You can find more Dream meanings by Clicking Here.

“The best thing about dreams is that fleeting moment, when you are between asleep and awake, when you don’t know the difference between reality and fantasy, when for just that one moment you feel with your entire soul that the dream is reality, and it really happened.”-Unknown

XO,
Kristin Nicole