Category Archives: Poetry

Letting Go

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Letting go is the hardest thing to do
but it doesn’t mean I’ll forget you
when sadness creeps in through the night
you are the one person I dream about to make things right
When everything looks like it’s falling apart
you give me strength to move on

When I heard you were leaving
I couldn’t believe my ears
My heart sank but I held on to fate
I didn’t want to see it
I didn’t want to hear it
but deep down I knew this day would come
that in darkness you would be gone.

In my dreams I see you
and I don’t want to wake
I can smell you and feel you
why was this your fate?

I’ll hold on until I can’t anymore
but know that I will always love you
in my heart you will always be
forever just you and me.

©kristin nicole – 2012

Emotions

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My emotions are stirred and I can’t tell you why
I’m feeling lost in a world I can’t hide
When laughter and tear drops are all from the past
I can’t help but hide the tears that last

In moonlight and stars I cover the pain
Without you in my life I feel insane.
Long lasting phone calls and butterfly kisses
I hold onto the hope and the rainbows in the sky
that one day I’ll see myself the way you see me
the person inside the mirror, I just can’t be.

Feeling lost and incomplete
time passing by
leaving me behind.

You’re everything I wished for
a shooting star in the sky
gummy bears and rain drops playing a song
saying how much you mean to me, after all that’s been done.

My emotions are stirred and I can’t tell you why
I’m feeling lost in a world I can’t hide
When laughter and tear drops are all from the past
I can’t help but hide the tears that last.

©kristin nicole – 2012

Empty Lies

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Your promises are empty lies
you live in a world I despise
pretend smiles
and normalcy
a gift from you to me.

Look at yourself, what can you possibly see
the person looking back at me
sadness in your eyes, anger and hate
all the things that have happened have led to your fate
a little boy lost inside without a care,
living each day as if it was fair.

Get over it, stop the lies
stop pretending this is all okay
living a lie you believe to be true
Empty lies covered in pain
pretending each day is the same.

©kristin nicole – 2012

Some people never change

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Some people never change
you hide behind a smile that I know is a frown
you hide behind the laughter which I know is drowned
you say things to make people believe
but I know deep inside, you’ll never see.

You will always think your worthless
I’m starting to see it’s true
with everything that’s happened
you think by now you would just be you

Maybe I’m stupid or just naive,
maybe this is you
a person of whom I can’t see
everything about you is sad from the start
a man with no face
a lie to his name
a perfect story
a fictitious blame

Stop before you speak again
see what you’ve become
stop pretending
the lie has already won.

©kristin nicole – 2012

Never Before

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Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Love me like I’ve never felt before
Kiss me until the stars shine down
Make love to me and watch my world go round.

I never thought I would love again
but you showed me what it is
It isn’t flowers and hearts
but what I feel within.

You showed me what it was to cry
How to wipe away my tears
you showed me I was better than that
you showed me how to live
you showed me to believe in me
and never give up hope
you showed me your heart

I look at you and I love you
I see what you can be
if only I believed in me
the way you do
I would go a thousand miles just to see your face
cross the mountains just to hear your voice
cross an ocean to feel your arms around me
if only you can see
that what we have together is not just a memory

Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Love me like I’ve never been loved before
Kiss me until the stars shine down
Make love to me and watch my world go round.

©kristin nicole – 2012

When you left

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When you left

When you left
I couldn’t breath
I had to take one step at a time to make myself believe
The pain ran through my veins
My heart skipped a beat
And every time I thought of you
I lied there in disbelief.

When you left
My world fell apart
Everything around me disappeared from the start
I didn’t think I could move
But I kept everything inside
Without you, my world can’t comply.

I sit there staring at the sky
Wishing you could hear me
Wishing you were here
Why did you have to leave me, when everything about us was real?

Death comes in different forms
But yours was very slow
I got to hold on
But it wasn’t you anymore
I try to think of you when the days were warm
When we loved like there was no tomorrow

You showed me there was love
You showed me there was hope
And I will always love you
I will always miss you
I will always remember you

Because even though you see me walking
Inside a part of me died with you
I’ll never get that back until I see you again

Every day I think of you my heart skips a beat
Deep down inside you will always be with me
Until the day I see you again my love
You will forever remain in my heart.

© Written by: Kristin Nicole – September 2012

Dedicated to all those who have lost someone. Two friends of mine lost their step father recently to cancer, and I cannot imagine the pain they have to go through. The pain their mother is going through. I started writing this because I was thinking about the people I have lost in my life, and I started thinking about them and what they had to endure throughout his sickness. My prayers and thoughts are with them and to all those who have lost a loved one.

xo,
kristin nicole

I know…

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I know

I know what it feels like
I know what it takes
I know deep inside you feel lost
A wall you have built
To let everyone out
Hoping that will make things better
Losing yourself within the doubt

When things start looking better
You sabotage your own results
Living a lie not in pleasure
You cry in bed at all costs

I know how you feel
I was there too
Not knowing who you are
Pretending to be two

Living in the dark
Not knowing where to go
Living a lie of happiness
When all you feel is alone

You don’t have to cry
You don’t have to feel alone
You don’t need to defy all the odds
You have to just let go

Let go of the sadness, of the anger and tears
Look deep inside yourself
And get rid of all your fears

Deep down there is a way
Even though you may not see
But everyone at one point feels alone
You just have to wake up and see
That although you do not want to hear it, see it or believe it
Family is always there
Because we care.

Take a moment to see who you are
Know that in the end you will go far
You have to have faith and see what we see
Because deep down inside you want to be free,
And the only way to do that is to be honest with yourself
remember that in the end, you can only change yourself.

xo
kristin nicole

© Written by: Kristin Nicole – August 2012

In the dark

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In the dark

When everything seems dark and hasty
look into my eyes and you will see
that everything you dreamed about is right in front of me

Don’t shut me out
Don’t hide behind your wall
Stop pretending you are someone you are not

I used to see you
but now you’re just a blur
an image of what I thought you were.

When you lie to them
it’s like lying to me
pretending to be happy
living in misery

Look around you
open your eyes
this little world you’re living in
is just a big old lie

You can’t live on this way
pretending to be what you’re not
pretending to all those that care
as if everything was okay
pretending that life is easy
is your biggest mistake

Wake up and see
see what you have become
See that everyone around you
is linked as one

When everything seems dark and hasty
open your eyes to see
that the real person inside, is staring back at me.

xo
kristin nicole

© written by: kristin nicole July 2012

Wonder

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Wonder

Why do you shut out those that you love?
Why do you lay there pretending you are the only one?
Why can’t you see you’re going to be all alone?
You’ve pushed us away for so long
We are practically out the door.

She loved you but you couldn’t see
All the things she meant to be
With every day the heart grows fonder
In this case, the days grew quieter

With every rain drop tears fell at night
Holding in the anger that made everything alright
Now it’s in the open a relationship that barely exists
Separate lives, one house, not a home
But a reminder of what isn’t there anymore.

We hope and we pray that everything will be alright
Scared to move forward
Staying in something that isn’t right
Pretending everything is okay
Is killing the way I feel
Wondering if love is even real.

Does it always go away?
Or does true love really exist?
Two people, one world, one love
In the end does it all even matter?
Or do we keep moving forward
Pretending that life is going to be okay
Scared to move on
Scared of the world
Scared to be alone
Living in a lie that will never be home.

© Written by: kristin nicole 2012

When I see you

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When I see you

When I see you
I think of her
Wondering if she’s happy
Wondering what went wrong
Why couldn’t I see she was the one?

I tried to move on
Pretend that I was happy
But deep down I’ll never forget
That in the hearts of all hearts I let the best of me go
And when I think of her
She’s all I’ll ever know.

I moved forward with my life
I have someone new
And although a part of me loves her
It will never be you.

You were the one that knew me best
The good with the bad
But I was so stupid to think you would never leave
I was stupid to think I had you
That you would never run away
But when I broke your heart
You had no words to say

I begged you to listen
I begged you to speak
But when I looked at you
You were no longer weak.

You were filled with anger
But you didn’t shed a single tear
Instead I was the one drowning out all my fears
We sat there in silence and you looked in a daze
When I tried to reach you
You were nowhere in sight
When I left that day
It broke me in half
Because I knew that it was over
And you were never coming back.

©kristin nicole – 2012