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Did you ever stop and think of me
Or did you just pretend I never existed?
Closed that door
made a lie about how you never loved me anymore
Left me standing there with my heart on my sleeve
wondering what I did wrong
Wondering how I can fix something that didn’t exist.

I wrote you a letter
you never wrote back
later i found out you held it in your sack.
Why didn’t you say anything to me
why did you hide who you were
don’t you know i would have loved you anyway

Standing there all alone
I cried
Wondering why you couldn’t love me
And with tears in my eyes I pulled out that paper and pen
started to write all the things you didn’t want to feel
But I told you the truth
and the truth always hurts
look in the mirror and see who you are
stop hiding
I’m right here.

No words can express the pain you caused me
I think that’s when I started shutting people out
I started to hide behind a wall
because behind the wall no one can see
all the pain you truly caused me.

I pulled out that paper and pen
started to write all the things you didn’t want to hear
But I told you the truth
and the truth always hurts
look in the mirror and see who you are
stop hiding
I’m right here.

Now it’s too late
you’re already gone
Why couldn’t you see the truth
that no matter who you were
I would always love you.
Why couldn’t you stop hiding?
I was right here…

written by: kristin nicole – February 19, 2010 – Friday

~ This was written about someone that used to be in my life. They passed away without ever being able to talk things out. Life is too short, when you feel something let the person you love know because you never know when they’ll be gone. If I haven’t said it enough, I love you!~

xo,
kristin nicole

My mind struggles to think
I can feel every aspect in my mind trying to focus
but every time I close my eyes and try to think of nothing
I can’t!
It’s in constant motion,
constant thinking
negative thoughts, positive thoughts
but mostly just thoughts.

How can you get your mind to relax, to just not think of anything at all. Fully focus on nothing and let your body just relax.

Some say sleep is a form of relaxation.
Many people don’t remember their dreams, but I dream almost every night.
Mostly nonsense stuff that doesn’t even make sense.
When I wake up I feel exhausted sometimes, feeling like that dream had me running for miles.

My mind has control of me, my thoughts, my dreams my desires. How do you make it stop just for one second?
Just stop for one second so that I can breath with out feeling the pressure in my head.
Stop for one second so I can think straight.
When I read, I’m thinking
When I lie there, I’m thinking
When I dream, I’m thinking
It never just stops, it never just lets me relax, it never just lets me BE ME!

It’s like a fish in a bowl, swimming in circles for hours, for days until he takes his last breath. I sometimes feel like that, a routine, work, school, play, work, school, play. It never just stops, I never stop.

xo,
kristin nicole

–written by: kristin nicole — January 22, 2010 @ 10:15 am– Inspired by a dream, stuck in a dream–

There comes a time in life when you have to realize this is it… when everything around you changes and you feel like you have changed as well. This is called “growing up”.

In a life full of questions, in a life full of fun, there isn’t a moment that passes that I wonder is this the one?

Is this the one time that I’ll make this mistake
Is this the one time I’ll cry
Is this the one time I’ll laugh
Or is this all a lesson of which I’ve passed?

Time is an essence
a tick of the clock
when you look around you
nothing has stopped.

Every day passes
another day gone
another day older
another day closer.

Live your life to the fullest
and have no regrets
because tomorrow’s not promised
but today…
today I live
today I grow
today i tell you i love you
Tomorrow, I just don’t know…

xo,
kristin nicole

I have a job
I have money to pay off my school in order to finish my AA.
I have a roof over my head,
I have food,
I have clothes,
I have love,
I have family
I have friends
I have a car
I have my health
I have a lot more then most, and today I thank God for all I HAVE!

Whatever may come, whatever may go, at the end of the day I HAVE LOVE, I HAVE LIFE!
xo,
kristin nicole

Sometimes in life things don’t go as planned
Sometimes we run from the bad things at hand
Sometimes we face them and hope for the light
Other times we hide for cover not knowing where to part.

Some of us hide and cover our hearts, not wanting to get to hurt, not wanting to cry, not wanting to feel those feelings that we hide deep inside.
Some of us we open our hearts to others, hoping they’ll love us, hoping for truth, hoping to God for someone to love, showing us the life we always dreamed of.

Some people suffer,
Some are born rich,
Some are born disabled,
Some are just sick.
Some people cry all the time
While others carry the world on their shoulders.
Some people laugh without a worry in mind but,
Everyone’s different, that’s the world we can’t leave behind.

Sometimes in life things don’t go as planned
Sometimes we run from the bad things at hand
Sometimes we face them and hope for the light
Sometimes we just sit back and pray that this life we live is just RIGHT!

Written By: Kristin Nicole ~ October 20th, 2009 (Tuesday)

xo,
kristin nicole

Why does life have to be so complicated.

Why can’t you come to me naturally
Like the morning breeze
Like the sun rising in the mornings
Like the smile that enters your heart when something good happens.

If you could turn back time what would you do?
Would you make life just a little less complicated?
Would you take back those words you said that made tears roll down?
Would you turn dark sky’s into rainbows?

Would that make life a little less complicated?
If everything was sunshine and rainbows
would I be happier?

Sometimes I sit there in silence only wishing for what I dream for to finally come true.
How long do I have to work and pray and dream for?
How long before something actually starts working out?

If every day were sunshine and rainbows
would you give me a little smile
tell me everything is going to be okay
would you look up into the sky and just know that today life is going to be just a little less complicated?

Written By: Kristin Nicole – October 1, 2009 – Thursday

xo,
kristin nicole

Today is the day I decide to change my ways
Today is the day I stand tall and realize there is a change that needs to be made.
Today is today, not tomorrow or the next, but right here and now, where anything can happen good or bad.
Tomorrow may never come and then what?!?

Today I choose to smile not frown
Today I choose to love not hate
Today I choose to shed tears of joy not sorrow
Today I choose to live not die
Today I choose to live, love and laugh because tomorrow’s not guaranteed.

Why waste all your time sad or angry when you could be happy laughing, loving and living your life?
That’s why today I make a change…

Today I change my frown into a smile
Today I change my hate into love
Today I change my tears of sorrow into joy
Today I change my life
Because today I choose to live, love and laugh

xo,
kristin nicole

Written By: Kristin Nicole 09-29-09 – Tuesday

Thousands of words spoken
Could never really describe
Every moment spent with you
Through an angels eyes.

If I give you a thousand kisses
I could never convey
The amount of love I feel for you each and every day.

A thousand smiles in your direction
And you could never see
The million of smiles you give me when you look at me.

A thousand worlds combined
And in my heart you are mine
I never thought I would find a love like ours intertwined.

A thousand lives in our path
A million to come
But what I see in my heart
Is the love I once lost.
Now found through the light
Given a chance to shine bright
I look into your eyes and see what could be
Everything around me has me falling to my knees
Thanking the lord and the angels above
For giving me your love.

A thousand stars in the night and you only see one
That’s how I feel when I feel your love.
I never thought I find you in my life
Everything I look for and all the days of our lives.

Thousands of words spoken
Thousands of kisses to come
A thousand smiles in your direction
A thousand worlds found as one
A thousand lives in our path
A thousand stars in the night
No matter how many thousands
It will always feel right because you are the man of my dreams
The one I adore
The one I want to be with forever & more.

Written by: Kristin Nicole – Tuesday – April 10, 2007

This poem I wrote back in April of 2007, I was looking through some of the stuff I used to write and it reminds me how much I really love my boyfriend and how much I really love to write. Hope you enjoy it.

xo,
kristin nicole

Two Years and Seven Months today you put a smile on my face.

You opened my eyes
You talked to me
You said those words that set my heart free.

With every thought in my mind
I couldn’t believe
That a man like you
Would find me.

You opened my heart
To dreams unknown
Wishes unanswered
And stars that glow.

With every beat in my heart
You loved me.

With every step I take
You held me

With every tear I’ve cried
You showed me the way
That no matter what happens
In my heart you’ll always lay.

A special place in my heart
You and I will never part.

Two years and Seven months ago today
You let me in
And with ever kiss I give you
I love you. <3

XO,
Kristin Nicole

With words unspoken I turn to you,
With every being in me I say to you,
The love I have is oh so rare,
A moment shared is without a care,
So deeply moved in the oceans blue,
As I look at you and truly see,
That we have is special,
That we share is true,
With every pulse and every breath I know that I love you.

Sometimes I stare into the sky,
And wonder what will be,
As I close my eyes ,
I see you there,
Holding me close as I pull back my hair,
And with every sparkle in the sky,
I see my future through your bright green eyes.

With words unspoken I turn to you,
I say I love you with meanings so true,
And every night I go to bed,
I say a prayer in my head.

Lord watch over us every night,
Because a love like this is hard to find.
With every fiber in my soul, I love.
I love…

XO,
Kristin Nicole