SoapNights / Kristin Nicole

Get your own Friends

Get your own friends
why do you have to seek out mine?
are you not over it?
give up your pride…

Tell me a story
the one that fell apart
the one that left you
and died out your heart

Get your own friends
leave mine alone
is it not enough that it ended,
that you keep lurking around my door?

Time is of essence
we all have to move on
leave it alone now
leave it be
leave, leave, leave…

Get out of my mind
out my head
leaving was the best thing
if not I’d be dead

Get your own friends
just leave mine alone
find a new hobby
find a new friend
just stop trying to steal mine instead…

~written by: kristin nicole – March 2011

This was inspired by a dream a friend told me about. She stopped being friends with her child hood friend and she started hanging out with her friends and taking them from her, she just wanted to move on from their friendship, but every time she turned around, she was there. Hope you enjoyed the poem.

xo,
kristin nicole

Little black box

When you left I put you in a box
wrapped you up and left you in the back of my head
Every now and then you pop up into my mind
leave me alone
it just isn’t our time

You left me so sudden
it all just went away
I didn’t have time to cry for you
so I walked away.

Everyone leaves one day
but it just wasn’t your time
that day in the hospital
a part of me died.
Every time someone left a part of me left too
it’s a wonder I’m still here
standing here
writing this to you.

With tears held back
I shiver in fear
because I don’t know who I’ll lose next
and drown out my tears

The world is so big
yet oh so small
why can’t you just leave when you leave
why do you linger in my dreams?

Letting go of pain
is the hardest thing I’ve had to do
Living in this world of mine
I do what I have to do

Today is another day
Today I continue to walk
Today I live my life
with you in the back of that little black box.

~written by: kristin nicole – March 16, 2011

xo,
kristin nicole

Happy St. Patrick’s Day 2011

Saint Patrick’s Day is a religious holiday celebrated internationally on the 17th of March. It is named after Saint Patrick (c. AD 387–461), the most commonly recognized of the patron saints of Ireland. It originated as a Catholic holiday and became an official feast day in the early 17th century. It has gradually become more of a secular celebration of Irish culture. (via Wikipedia.org

Here is a fun poem for St. Patrick’s Day…. ENJOY

I’ll Wear a Shamrock

St. Patrick’s Day is with us,
The day when all that’s seen
To right and left and everywhere
Is green, green, green!

And Irish tunes they whistle
And Irish songs they sing,
To-day each Irish lad walks out
As proud as any king.

I’ll wear a four-leaf shamrock
In my coat, the glad day through,
For my father and mother are Irish
And I am Irish too!

~ The Holiday Spot

Have a wonderful St. Patrick’s Day – Drink lots of Green Beer, but don’t drive home drunk, make sure to get a taxi or your luck will be lost….

HAPPY ST. PATRICK’S DAY!

xo,
kristin nicole

PART 2 – You’re NOT the One (Her thoughts)……

You thought you stopped loving me?
You thought you didn’t care?
How could you be so selfish to just sit back and stare?
I looked into your eyes as my eyes filled up with tears,
You stood there standing watching me drown out my fears.

You pretended to be happy.
You put on an act,
You thought I couldn’t see the truth,
You had to face the facts.

You put up a wall; you pushed me to the floor
I did all I could do
I even gave you my door.
Then one day I woke up and realized this is it.
I didn’t want to be with you, my fate was sealed with out your kiss.

CHORUS:
Now you’re the one crying inside
You’re the one that can’t let go
You’re the one wishing for me to come back
Wishing once again I’d be at your door.

You pushed me way to far.
I walked right out the door.
I told you I loved you but I couldn’t take the pain no more.
I asked you if you loved me.
I gave you one last chance.
All you did was look at me, you failed my last request.

With silence in your eyes, you stood in disbelief.
You didn’t say a single word, you didn’t share a peep.
If you would have listened closely,
You can hear my every word,
You can hear the tears fall down
And my heart break in a million burns.

You didn’t think I’d leave you,
You thought I’d always be around
You thought you had me.
You stood your ground.

Well you thought wrong…
You let me walk away
You lost me that day.
Now you’re left with nothing to say.

CHORUS x 2

xo,
kristin nicole

written by: kristin nicole

His thoughts (You’re the one) Part 1:

I thought I stopped loving you and I thought I didn’t care.
I pushed our love aside, as you looked into my eyes.
You cried for me and I let you down.
I don’t know how to fix this so I almost let you drown.

I pretended to be happy
But you knew the real me
You knew how to make me smile and I let you leave.

You were my everything and I let you down.
I let you walk away that day,
What the fuck was I thinking when I let you get away?
Why did I put up this wall?
Why did I let you go?

Chorus: I’m crying inside
I can’t break free
Sadness is killing me
Please come back to me.
I can’t let you go
You’re my everything.

I pushed you away until you stepped out the door.
You said you loved me but you couldn’t take the pain no more.
You asked me if I loved you
If we could make it work,
You said all there was to say
Then you walked away…

I stood in silence as you looked into my eyes
I couldn’t say a word, as tears rolled down your eyes…..
I saw I was breaking your heart.
But I stood in disbelief
Never thought you would really leave me!

I can’t lose you now
You’re all I ever had
I thought I’d never lose you but I was wrong to think I had
Because I still had you,
You were mine in every way
And when I let you walk away
I lost you that day!
Now I’m left with nothing to say….

CHORUS x 2

I can’t let you go
You’re my everything….

xo,
kristin nicole

written by: kristin nicole

Next Post you can read Part II – Her side….

Did You Ever Think Of ME?

Did you ever stop and think of me
Or did you just pretend I never existed?
Closed that door
made a lie about how you never loved me anymore
Left me standing there with my heart on my sleeve
wondering what I did wrong
Wondering how I can fix something that didn’t exist.

I wrote you a letter
you never wrote back
later i found out you held it in your sack.
Why didn’t you say anything to me
why did you hide who you were
don’t you know i would have loved you anyway

Standing there all alone
I cried
Wondering why you couldn’t love me
And with tears in my eyes I pulled out that paper and pen
started to write all the things you didn’t want to feel
But I told you the truth
and the truth always hurts
look in the mirror and see who you are
stop hiding
I’m right here.

No words can express the pain you caused me
I think that’s when I started shutting people out
I started to hide behind a wall
because behind the wall no one can see
all the pain you truly caused me.

I pulled out that paper and pen
started to write all the things you didn’t want to hear
But I told you the truth
and the truth always hurts
look in the mirror and see who you are
stop hiding
I’m right here.

Now it’s too late
you’re already gone
Why couldn’t you see the truth
that no matter who you were
I would always love you.
Why couldn’t you stop hiding?
I was right here…

written by: kristin nicole – February 19, 2010 – Friday

~ This was written about someone that used to be in my life. They passed away without ever being able to talk things out. Life is too short, when you feel something let the person you love know because you never know when they’ll be gone. If I haven’t said it enough, I love you!~

xo,
kristin nicole

Tomorrow’s your Big Day…

Tomorrow’s your big day
The day you tie the knot,
The day you say I do,
And forever be his glue.

I see the way you look at him,
The smile in your eyes,
The way he looks at you,
The love just shines.

Tomorrow’s your big day
I’ll stand right by your side
I know your dad won’t be there
but he’s watching from above,
watching every step you take,
and sending you his love.

Tomorrow’s your big day,
The day you tie the knot,
The day you say I do,
and forever be true.

Tomorrow’s your big day,
A marriage made by two,
The day you fall in love again
and say I DO…

xo,
kristin nicole

Written By: Kristin Nicole – 2011

Dedicated to my best friend, my sister who I adore. I love you and I wish you nothing but the best filled with happiness and love. I love you.

Another year gone by, and another Valentine’s is here. Not everyone is blessed to be in a relationship. Valentine’s day is said to bring a lot of depression and suicide rates up. People need to realize that Valentine’s day is just a holiday invented by people to celebrate your love, but you shouldn’t just celebrate it one day out of the year, you should celebrate your love 365 days out of the year. Okay well not exactly celebrate since you can’t buy gifts and go out to dinner every single day of the year, but you can celebrate it by loving each other, respecting each other, making memories that will last a life time.

If you are couple go out, be romantic but don’t just do this special thing on Valentine’s day, go all out on a regular day, I think it would mean so much more than just because it’s Valentine’s Day. Don’t get me wrong, flowers and a gift is nice on Valentine’s day too…

For those who don’t have someone to celebrate Valentine’s day with, why not go out with a friend, have some drinks, watch a movie. If you feel sad don’t fret, there is always next year.

Happy Valentine’s All – hope you have a wonderful day!

Here’s a poem I found:

It’s More Than Saying I Love You

We give on this day candy and flowers,
But we never stop to say thank you for the many hours.
You have stood by my side and gave a smile,
As if to tell our hearts it’s been worth every mile.
No need to buy a teddy bear or even a card,
It’s pretty simple and not at all hard.
Just put your arms around me and hold me tight,
And say without words that in your heart all is right.
You may say I Love You throughout the year,
But on this day you need to make sure.
The words so sweet and straight from your heart,
That your life would be lonely without my part.
So put forth the effort and take the time,
Look me in the eye and say I’m glad you’re mine.
~By Marai

xo,
kristin nicole

~Happy Valentine’s Day~

Dear Santa

Dear Santa, I’m older
But, still believe in you
(At least, I believe in
The things you try, to do).

Maybe, I can’t ask for
A Tonka, or, a train.
(But, if you’d bring one of them
You know, I won’t complain).

But, what I really wish for
Is a special present
Love that can’t be “returned”
Once it has been sent.

Everybody needs a little
And some, need a lot
But, if you get a tiny bit
You still know what you got.

So Santa, drop a little
Under each Christmas tree
Then, all will get a present
From what it’s ‘posed to be.

And if there is no tree
For the alone, and poor
When you get, to their place
Just, drop, a little more.

Written by: Del “Abe” Jones (TheHolidaySpot.com)

What do you want for Christmas this year?
I hope everyone has a wonderful Holiday and a Happy New Year

xo,
kristin nicole

November Rain

Today it rains on my parade
Today the clouds come out to play
Today like any other day is November Rain.

I sit there by the window
waiting for the phone
waiting to hear about my husband
who is out there in the war…

I sit here in my room
coloring on the walls
wondering if my daddy
will be able to tuck me in at all…

I remember playing ball,
I remember our first dates,
I remember when we used to argue
I remember his face.
I wonder where he is,
And I wish that I was there
My older brother is my hero
I just couldn’t bare…

I sit here looking at the pictures
remembering my son grow up
I would have never imagined he would grow up to fight for us all.
My son is a hero he left that November day
He looked me in the eyes and said
Mama, everything will be okay…

I looked into his eyes, and told him I was proud
but deep down inside I wanted to hold him down.
I wanted to yell, please don’t go
Do yo know how dangerous it is out there?
Do you know some boys don’t come back home?
I kissed him on the cheek and gave him a great big hug
with tears in my eyes I said goodbye…

I put on my brave eyes and told him I loved him
That day it rained on my parade
That day the clouds came out to play
That day became November Rain.

Mama please don’t cry
but today is the day I go to war
today is the day I fight for our country
Please be brave, I’ll be alright but I have to do this
It’s only right.

My wife is waiting at home, I hold pictures of her at night,
My child is waiting with tears in her eyes, I wish I can hold her tight. My brothers and sisters I miss so much I wish I can see them now,
My mother is praying for me to come home,
I wish I can call her now.

I’ll never get that chance now,
I did what I needed to do
I fought for my country and died,
but I believed in the Red, White and Blue.

We stand strong,
We live strong,
It’s the way of a soldier.

Today it rains on my parade
Today the clouds come out to play
Today like any other day is November Rain.

~Dedicated to all the Veterans, all the Soldiers who have passed, and all the Soldiers who are still out there risking their lives for us each and every day~

xo,
kristin nicole

written by: kristin nicole – 11/11/10~