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The Question:

Dear kristin nicole;

My boyfriend cheated on me and I don’t know if to stay with him or leave him. He say’s he is sorry and it will never happen again, but I don’t know if to trust him anymore.

My Response:

Dear cheated on;

You shouldn’t stay in a relationship where the man does not respect you. A person who cheats on another person does not respect them or care enough to stop what they are doing before doing it. At the end of the day you have to ask yourself, if he is worth sticking around with, or if there is someone else out there who won’t hurt you the way he just did? Be strong, and remember that there is always better, and no person should have to be in a relationship where there is no trust. Trust is key to any relationship.

xo,
kristin nicole

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Broken in Two

I loved you with words unsaid
I loved you until you cheated in my bed
I loved you for all the wrong reasons
I loved you for all the right feelings
I loved you for what you didn’t say
for all the lies you made

You looked at me with truth
I didn’t see the real you
You were a liar and a fake
you cheated on me and that was your biggest mistake

I tried to forgive you
I tried to ignore the truth
I was blinded by an image that wasn’t me and you

you took my heart
you played it like a string on a guitar
you said you loved me
but the truth was you only loved yourself

you lied to yourself
made everything bigger than it was
pretended to be happy
lost without a doubt

one day the light turned on
and you knew you couldn’t pretend anymore
you fought it but you had to say it out loud
our relationship was a blur
as if it was never true
i wish it weren’t because it would have been easier to forget you.

When i moved on
you wanted me back
it was too late
you have to face the facts,
you fucked up
and there’s no turning back.

now i see you and you pretend to be happy
but i know you
you never changed
you can put on an act
pretend to be happy
pretend nothing in the world will break you
but we both know the truth
you’re broken in two

the person i once knew
and the new you
you can put on a smile
you can move forward in life
but deep down inside you’ll never be you
you will always be the broken man i once knew.

xo,
kristin nicole

© 2012 kristin nicole

This is an old poem (Repost). Enjoy

PART 2 – You’re NOT the One (Her thoughts)……

You thought you stopped loving me?
You thought you didn’t care?
How could you be so selfish to just sit back and stare?
I looked into your eyes as my eyes filled up with tears,
You stood there standing watching me drown out my fears.

You pretended to be happy.
You put on an act,
You thought I couldn’t see the truth,
You had to face the facts.

You put up a wall; you pushed me to the floor
I did all I could do
I even gave you my door.
Then one day I woke up and realized this is it.
I didn’t want to be with you, my fate was sealed with out your kiss.

CHORUS:
Now you’re the one crying inside
You’re the one that can’t let go
You’re the one wishing for me to come back
Wishing once again I’d be at your door.

You pushed me way to far.
I walked right out the door.
I told you I loved you but I couldn’t take the pain no more.
I asked you if you loved me.
I gave you one last chance.
All you did was look at me, you failed my last request.

With silence in your eyes, you stood in disbelief.
You didn’t say a single word, you didn’t share a peep.
If you would have listened closely,
You can hear my every word,
You can hear the tears fall down
And my heart break in a million burns.

You didn’t think I’d leave you,
You thought I’d always be around
You thought you had me.
You stood your ground.

Well you thought wrong…
You let me walk away
You lost me that day.
Now you’re left with nothing to say.

CHORUS x 2

xo,
kristin nicole

© written by: kristin nicole

(Re-post)

His thoughts (You’re the one) Part 1:

I thought I stopped loving you and I thought I didn’t care.
I pushed our love aside, as you looked into my eyes.
You cried for me and I let you down.
I don’t know how to fix this so I almost let you drown.

I pretended to be happy
But you knew the real me
You knew how to make me smile and I let you leave.

You were my everything and I let you down.
I let you walk away that day,
What the fuck was I thinking when I let you get away?
Why did I put up this wall?
Why did I let you go?

Chorus: I’m crying inside
I can’t break free
Sadness is killing me
Please come back to me.
I can’t let you go
You’re my everything.

I pushed you away until you stepped out the door.
You said you loved me but you couldn’t take the pain no more.
You asked me if I loved you
If we could make it work,
You said all there was to say
Then you walked away…

I stood in silence as you looked into my eyes
I couldn’t say a word, as tears rolled down your eyes…..
I saw I was breaking your heart.
But I stood in disbelief
Never thought you would really leave me!

I can’t lose you now
You’re all I ever had
I thought I’d never lose you but I was wrong to think I had
Because I still had you,
You were mine in every way
And when I let you walk away
I lost you that day!
Now I’m left with nothing to say….

CHORUS x 2

I can’t let you go
You’re my everything….

xo,
kristin nicole

© written by: kristin nicole

Next Post you can read Part II – Her side….

I <3 Food - Photo by: Google.com/images

I heart Food

I recently launched my  new site; AGirlsKitchen.com – I love everything about food and I have always loved to cook. I am not a ‘Real’ Chef, but I’m the Chef in my house. If you love food as much as I do, you are constantly looking at pictures and recipes to do. Of course, it’s actually rare if I have the time or energy to make most of these recipes, and sometimes it’s hard to find ingredients that go with these dishes, but I look for them anyway and when I have time I make that recipe.

I haven’t been able to post as much as I would like but I am in the progress of trying to come up with a plan to at least post one recipe a week. If you have recipes you would like to share, I can post them as a guest recipe. So don’t be shy and email me or comment and I will get in contact with you.

Recently I have been searching different diets like the low carb diet, which I have been on and off on for over a year, you just cut out all white carbs during the week, bread, rice, pasta, potatoes, and you implement good carbs (vegetables), legumes and meat, chicken or fish. I thought it would be harder to do but I actually enjoy eating healthier and I can feel my body having more energy than usual. Our Saturday’s are our cheat days, so we indulge and I cook all the good stuff that I am usually looking at during the week. Recently we have been looking into the Paleo life style, although it does interest me, I do not think on a personal level that I would like to implement this 100% into my diet. I love food too much, and I know not everything is healthy for you, but you only live once, and as long as you moderate what you eat and you don’t go junk food crazy, then it doesn’t hurt to indulge a little in life. When I see food I love, my mouth waters, my taste buds start jumping and I can’t help but feel like a kid in a candy store. If I go to a restaurant and love their dish, I try to think of ways to recreate it at home, and I don’t mean that I get a little excited, I mean it’s Christmas all over again. Sure I’m not a Chef, but I do think I can cook pretty damn good, and if I can make a dish where my mouth says YUM and my heart skips a beat, then I’m going all in….

I have a few websites I would like to share with you and you should definitely check them out:

www.kayotic.nl/blog/

http://thenovicehousewife.wordpress.com/2012/03/06/garam-masala-tuesdays-shahi-paneer/

http://www.favfamilyrecipes.com/

http://nomnompaleo.com/

Don’t forget to check out my website http://agirlskitchen.com (copy and paste link if you can’t click on it)

Tell me what you think and what you would like to see on here. (Remember it’s a work in progress)
Have a great day. i <3 food

xo,

kristin nicole

Dreams - Photo Found on google.com/images

I had a dream with you the other day

You wrapped me in your arms and said everything would be okay

I looked into your eyes and you changed into someone new

Now I’m feeling lost and so confused.

You left me without a word, you didn’t say goodbye

You left me in tears and I didn’t know why

I loved you for reasons unsaid

And from one moment to the next you left me for her bed.

Another person in my life, you come and go as you please

You don’t say a single word; you just look at me and tease

But a part of me is happy and a part of me is sad because when,

I looked into your eyes you changed into someone new

Now I’m feeling lost and so confused.

You were someone when I met you

Then you changed into someone else

This new you isn’t the person I fell for

You changed for the worse, you’re lost and incomplete

The heartache would have been faster if you would have let me be

But you dragged my heart out; you held it in your hands

You played with it and let it go, leaving me bewildered and alone

I looked into your eyes as you changed into someone new

Now I’m feeling lost and so confused.

I hide from my shadow trying to cover the pain

Trying to imagine a world where everything is sane.

Then one day I found you

I turned to you and everything felt right

I see what I was missing

Someone to make me feel alright

Someone to make all the worries go away

Someone to love me in all the right ways.

When I look into your eyes it’s just you and me

The person I want to be with

The person who holds my heart

The person who makes everything feel better when I’m falling apart

© Written by: kristin nicole – April 2012