When you left

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When you left

When you left
I couldn’t breath
I had to take one step at a time to make myself believe
The pain ran through my veins
My heart skipped a beat
And every time I thought of you
I lied there in disbelief.

When you left
My world fell apart
Everything around me disappeared from the start
I didn’t think I could move
But I kept everything inside
Without you, my world can’t comply.

I sit there staring at the sky
Wishing you could hear me
Wishing you were here
Why did you have to leave me, when everything about us was real?

Death comes in different forms
But yours was very slow
I got to hold on
But it wasn’t you anymore
I try to think of you when the days were warm
When we loved like there was no tomorrow

You showed me there was love
You showed me there was hope
And I will always love you
I will always miss you
I will always remember you

Because even though you see me walking
Inside a part of me died with you
I’ll never get that back until I see you again

Every day I think of you my heart skips a beat
Deep down inside you will always be with me
Until the day I see you again my love
You will forever remain in my heart.

© Written by: Kristin Nicole – September 2012

Dedicated to all those who have lost someone. Two friends of mine lost their step father recently to cancer, and I cannot imagine the pain they have to go through. The pain their mother is going through. I started writing this because I was thinking about the people I have lost in my life, and I started thinking about them and what they had to endure throughout his sickness. My prayers and thoughts are with them and to all those who have lost a loved one.

xo,
kristin nicole

In the dark

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In the dark

When everything seems dark and hasty
look into my eyes and you will see
that everything you dreamed about is right in front of me

Don’t shut me out
Don’t hide behind your wall
Stop pretending you are someone you are not

I used to see you
but now you’re just a blur
an image of what I thought you were.

When you lie to them
it’s like lying to me
pretending to be happy
living in misery

Look around you
open your eyes
this little world you’re living in
is just a big old lie

You can’t live on this way
pretending to be what you’re not
pretending to all those that care
as if everything was okay
pretending that life is easy
is your biggest mistake

Wake up and see
see what you have become
See that everyone around you
is linked as one

When everything seems dark and hasty
open your eyes to see
that the real person inside, is staring back at me.

xo
kristin nicole

© written by: kristin nicole July 2012

I had a dream with you the other day

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I had a dream with you the other day

You wrapped me in your arms and said everything would be okay

I looked into your eyes and you changed into someone new

Now I’m feeling lost and so confused.

You left me without a word, you didn’t say goodbye

You left me in tears and I didn’t know why

I loved you for reasons unsaid

And from one moment to the next you left me for her bed.

Another person in my life, you come and go as you please

You don’t say a single word; you just look at me and tease

But a part of me is happy and a part of me is sad because when,

I looked into your eyes you changed into someone new

Now I’m feeling lost and so confused.

You were someone when I met you

Then you changed into someone else

This new you isn’t the person I fell for

You changed for the worse, you’re lost and incomplete

The heartache would have been faster if you would have let me be

But you dragged my heart out; you held it in your hands

You played with it and let it go, leaving me bewildered and alone

I looked into your eyes as you changed into someone new

Now I’m feeling lost and so confused.

I hide from my shadow trying to cover the pain

Trying to imagine a world where everything is sane.

Then one day I found you

I turned to you and everything felt right

I see what I was missing

Someone to make me feel alright

Someone to make all the worries go away

Someone to love me in all the right ways.

When I look into your eyes it’s just you and me

The person I want to be with

The person who holds my heart

The person who makes everything feel better when I’m falling apart

© Written by: kristin nicole – April 2012

Memorial Weekend 2010


Memorial Weekend 2010

Memorial Day: Memorial Day is a United States federal holiday observed on the last Monday of May. Formerly known as Decoration Day, it commemorates U.S. men and women who died while in the military service. First enacted to honor Union soldiers of the American Civil War (it is celebrated near the day of reunification after the Civil War), it was expanded after World War I.

Any Plans?!?

Any plans set up for Memorial weekend? Any good ideas you want to share? Let me know, recipes and more, I would love to see them and share them with others.

In Miami people usually head to the beach, BBQ, eat and drink, which is pretty much any other weekend in MIAMI :)

My plans:

We have two parties to attend actually. My cousins boyfriends house in Ft. Lauderdale, with a pool, catered food, and drinks, what more can you ask for. That will start around 12pm and around 4pm we will be heading out to our friends house in Cutler Bay, where we will then continue to party in the pool, eat and drink some more, may not sound like all crazy fun to you, but you do not know the people we hang out with. I can not wait!!

Some people make a whole trip out of it, maybe perhaps to go up to the Keys for the whole weekend, or somewhere else to have some fun. This year, I’m staying in….except for Sunday of course, which is when we are celebrating Memorial Day.

Tell me all about your plans I would love to hear them!!!

MEMORIAL DAY – some people do not really realize what it meant, which I left a small description in the beginning. I found this poem that I would love to share with you all.

Memorial Day

As we stand here looking
At the flags upon these graves
Know these flags represent
A few of the true American brave

They fought for their Country
As man has through all of time
Except that these soldiers lying here
Fought for your country and mine

As we all are gathered here
To pay them our respect
Let’s pass this word to others
It’s what they would expect

I’m sure that they would do it
If it were me or you
To show we did not die in vein
But for the red, white and blue.

Let’s pass on to our children
And to those who never knew
What these soldiers died for
It’s the least we can do

Let’s not forget their families
Great pain they had to bear
Losing a son, father or husband
They need to know we still care

No matter which war was fought
On the day that they died
I stand here looking at these flags
Filled with American pride.

So as the bugler plays out Taps
With its sweet and eerie sound
Pray for these soldiers lying here
In this sacred, hallowed ground.

Take home with you a sense of pride
You were here Memorial Day.
Celebrating the way Americans should
On this solemnest of days.

–© 1999 by Michelle Keim,
Commander of Royersford VFW Post 6341 in PA.–

You can see the poem Here

xo,
kristin nicole